- Made me hate my home even more
- Made me completely miserable.
- Made me realize what I truly want.
Commuting to my school is like paying for the "College" part of the "College Experience". I pay the same damn price, but because I don't live on campus I'm the last to know about anything. It really sucks to not be invited to anything. Having to come home everynight absolutely sucks. I dont get the fun aspect of college. I get to pay 47 grand a fucking year to come home to my warzone of a house.
It's not necessarily the commuting either. Its the fact that my parents still treat me like they did in High school. I have to take my dad to work everyday, I have to check in. I have to do my homework in front of them. Fuck that. I'm almost 19 years old. I don't need to be tied back.
Finally I have realized that I will not be completely happy in my life until I can tour the country, or world, with one of my bands. I would give everything just to share the music with people that I've never met. I would trade this home for a van and trailer. Not showering unless some kid was nice enough for us to spend the night. Thats the life I want. It's childish, I know. But that's what I want.
Rant over.