This I Believe.

I believe that when I am on any stage I am free. Being on stage as an actor, singer or with my band all give me the same rush of energy and sense of invincibility. When I’m up there I am free and no one can touch me. Performing is my passion.

                Never has this been so true to me as on January 21^st, 2011. My band was playing a place called the Seven Venue in Upper Arlington. We were opening up for a signed band from Columbus named The Crimson Armada. Everyone knew the show was going to be big, because the band had not played in Columbus for a year and a half, but we were not expecting the show to sell out.

                I had never prayed so hard in my life as I did that night. “Please God, don’t let me ruin this for my friends and I.” I still to this day will never find it unprofessional to care so much about my performance.  At first I was shocked by the lack of people at the show. The first two bands had maybe 100 people in their crowd. Then the third opening act came on the stage and the place seemed to fill with people. I was amazed at the sea of people moving, the size of the pits, and the pure energy of the people. The crowd was diving on top of itself for this band and I didn’t know how we were even going to compete with that. By the time I walked on stage for sound check I was ready to puke.

                When we finally started our set I was amazed by the reaction of the crowd. I don’t think they were expecting us to be good in any shape or form. Our crowd had so much energy that I feared for my life as the stage shook from the people moving. Its amazing feeling I get when I play for people. Just pure adrenaline followed by a shot of invincibility. No one could bring me down that night. They couldn’t even try. After our set, I was the most confident in my life. I knew this is what I wanted to do.  I have never in my life heard so many good things from strangers about anything I’ve done as I had last night. That feeling cannot be replicated by anything, and I wouldn’t trade it for the world.

                The stage is truly my home.  I want to be on it every day of my life and perform for people. I don’t care about the size of the crowd; I just want to do what I love to do because I love the felling it gives me. I believe that when I am on any stage I am free. No one can touch me.

Just Get The Fuck Over It

NO BODY GIVES A FUCK! AND THIS IS WHY EVERYONE HATES YOU!

-End Rant.

My friends over you.

Dear women,
I don't care anymore. Use me. I'm a toy. Because guess what? I have my friends. I don't need you when I've got them. This is who I am now. You can't change my mind. My friends come first, that's the bottom line. Even if I had a girlfriend (ha!) I still would take them. Love is a sham. Brother hood is true. My friends are my family. They don't lie. They don't cheat. They don't use me. That's what's up.

My friends are who I'll stick with forever. My band is my family and music is our love. It's safe to say that I don't want any kind of relationship ever and I'll die happy as the crazy old coot that all the little kids are afraid of. I've got my bass, my uke, my voice, and my music. That's all I need to be happy.

So after all we've been through,
I'll still pick my friends over you.

Here's to the Future

I've never heard a song simply explain my life. It just hasn't happened. I mean sure I can relate to a few but none have had an impact on me like this one.

This song touches me. It speaks what I could never say, no matter how close to the tip of my tongue it was.

"All Signs Point To Lauderdale"
By A Day To Remember

I hate this town, it's so washed up
And all my friends don't give a fuck
They'll tell me that it's just bad luck
When will I find where I fit in
2,3,4!

Remember when I tried
I'd never strayed too far from you
Forever by your side
No matter what I was going through
But now I never know the things to say to you
That help me prove that I'm still on your side
I never show just what you do to me
Guess I'm what's always wrong

I hate this town, it's so washed up
And all my friends don't give a fuck
They'll tell me that it's just bad luck
When will I find where I fit in
I hate this town

Cause no one can understand,
I just can't be tied down
Nothing comes between me and my plans
So now I never know the things to say to you
That help me prove that I'm still on your side
I never show just what you do to me
Guess I'm what's always wrong

I hate this town, it's so washed up
And all my friends don't give a fuck
They'll tell me that it's just bad luck
When will I find where I fit in

And don't believe a word they're telling to you
Don't believe a word they're telling to you
They let me down
When will I find where I fit in
I hate this town

Won't let a world gone mad ever bring me down
Gave everything I had to turn it back around
Cause our time's worth something
Bigger than both you and me
I can't live my life always backing down
I gotta do this right so they can't make a sound
Cause I'm not here for nothing
Least I can say I stand for something

You and me we stand for something

I hate this town, it's so washed up
And all my friends don't give a fuck
They'll tell me that it's just bad luck
When will I find where I fit in

And don't believe a word they're telling to you
Don't believe a word they're telling to you
They let me down
When will I find where I fit in
I hate this town...

I fucking hate Delaware. It's washed out and is filled with Has-Beens. I want to be somebody. Maybe not famous, but definitely not cast aside like every one else. There's nothing here for me. Nothing new. Nothing Exciting. Nothing at all.

Happy Camping.